I married my husband in 2006 and we have a blessed relationship. After waiting a year, we decided it was time to grow our family. I had a hard time figuring out my ovulation and decided to find a reproductive endocrinologist. Before my scheduled appointment, I had my first miscarriage. Blood work didn't confirm it, but I know in my heart that I lost my first baby when a sac like pouch came out of me. Since then, I've had 4 more early miscarriages and our most recent loss was in April, 2011 from an ectopic pregnancy. I decided to start a blog to document our IVF journey because I don't want to forget any details about this chapter in our lives. Also, infertility is such a lonely place and I'm finding an online presence of women who share in my sufferings. There are few reasons why I'm choosing to share our story with you. Primarily, we covet your prayers, it's also easier for me to communicate details and emotions in one place, and lastly for loved ones to know how to show their love and support towards us when it's a difficult subject to address.
Wow! We're in our 9th month and baby girl will be fully developed next week. Time is flying by very quickly now and I'm ready to have her at this point. We need to tidy up the nursery and finish packing the hospital bag.
Sleep: Getting out of bed takes more effort and am getting up a couple times a night due to left shoulder pain and bathroom trips. Movement: I feel her squirming around in her limited space. Her hiccups come when I feel hungry or just started to eat something and lasts for a couple minutes. I think she has my kind of appetite!
Cravings/Aversions: We were out of milk for a few days and I was craving it! I also wanted pizza with the works and my friend, N, ordered it for me along with buffalo chicken pizza...yum!
What I miss: Nothing at all. Feeling really content.
Symptoms: Bloated
hands and feet mostly. Numbness in some fingers and stiff hands. Feeling fatigue again and taking naps again.
What I look forward to: We're close to meeting our baby girl! I don't look forward to my weekly OB visits due to cervix checks...ouch! Heartbeat was 152 and I'm not dilated yet.
Milestones: Our baby is still packing on the pounds — at the rate of about an ounce a day. She now weighs almost 6 pounds (like a crenshaw melon)
and is more than 18 1/2 inches long. She's shedding most of the downy
covering of hair that covered her body as well as the vernix caseosa,
the waxy substance that covered and protected her skin during her
nine-month amniotic bath. The baby's swallowing both of these substances,
along with other secretions, resulting in a blackish mixture, called
meconium, which will form the contents of her first bowel movement.
I didn't post at 34 weeks because life's been busy and I was simply tired. Since we're temporarily down to one car, we've adjusted to sharing a car and borrowing cars as needed. J's car should be fixed by next week! The past 2 weekends were busy with many celebrations...my baby shower, our nephew, D, turned 1, we partied with E for turning 10 years old, and J's cousin got married! Also, before the baby comes, I'm cranking out my continuing education classes and took a 6 hour class at 34 weeks...it was a long day, baby girl was moving a lot, and glad I have one of the two live classes finished.
Sleep: It's pretty restful. I sleep on my left side and get up only once. Getting out of bed takes some effort since baby girl has grown!
Movement: I feel her move, but not as much as before since she's running out of room.
Cravings/Aversions:
Still craving chocolate, esp. dark chocolate peanut m&m's and honey crisp apples! Linvilla Orchards has honey crisps for sale at the market for $1 something per pound...so yummy and cheap for honey crisp! My SIL and BIL never tried these delicious, crispy and juicy apples and gave them some because they were missing out on the best apples ever! I think I parted ways with 5 of them, my BIL ate 4 and SIL ate 1. I don't think my nephews got a taste of these awesome apples. I'll just have to buy some more!
What I miss: Nothing at all. Feeling really content.
Symptoms: Bloated
hands and feet mostly. Numbness in some fingers and stiff hands.
What I look forward to: I'm officially seeing my OB once a week now...we're close to meeting our baby girl!
Baby Shower: Thanks to my family and friends who hosted an awesome shower...it was perfect! xoxo! The shower was beautiful and I feel abundantly blessed by the loving family and friends we have in our lives, those near and far, who have prayed and been there for us during our bumpy road of trying to conceive to becoming pregnant. If numbers weren't an issue at the venue, I would've invited the elementary school staff from my previous workplace who cried with me and prayed for me after my ectopic pregnancy last year. They will forever hold a special place in my heart. Our 5 year journey is thankfully coming to a close as we venture into the next phase...parenthood! I'm truly thankful and humbled.
J came for desserts and helped me cut the cake!
A nice keepsake for Isabella to read when she's older.
Nesting: The nursery is almost done. I have to pick some curtains and order some shelfpalooza's to store her toys, books, etc. After the baby shower, the living room was filled with presents and there wasn't much room to move. Thanks SR for sorting the gifts and removing all the tags! Thanks YM for organizing everything since I didn't know where to begin and making the house livable again!
Milestones: Our
baby at 34 weeks weighs about 4 3/4 pounds (like your average cantaloupe)
and is almost 18 inches long. Her fat layers — which will help regulate
her body temperature once she's born — are filling her out, making her
rounder. Her skin is also smoother than ever. Her central nervous system
is maturing and her lungs are continuing to mature as well. Babies born between 34 and 37 weeks who
have no other health problems generally do fine. They may need a short
stay in the neonatal nursery and may have a few short-term health
issues, but in the long run, they usually do as well as full-term
babies.
Our baby at 35 weeks doesn't have much room to maneuver now that she's over 18 inches long and tips the scales at 5 1/4 pounds (pick up a honeydew melon).
Because it's so snug in my womb, she isn't likely to be doing
somersaults anymore, but the number of times she kicks should remain
about the same. Her kidneys are fully developed now, and her liver can
process some waste products. Most of her basic physical development is
now complete — she'll spend the next few weeks putting on weight.
I had my OB appointment on Wednesday and all is well...150 bpm and she's 33 cm. long! 2 weeks prior, she was 31 cm. and is right on track. I asked my nurse practitioner about the numbness in my fingers...due to milk developing, certain nerves in the arms are pinched and causing the numbness, which is normal. It'll go away after pregnancy.
On my way to this appointment, I locked myself out of the house again! I had my cell phone in hand, thinking it was my keys. My parents came to the rescue with the spare! We went out to lunch and was able to get another appointment a few hours later.
J's work threw him a surprise baby shower on Wednesday and he was surprised! His co-worker, I, organized it and the shower looked nice...I saw some pictures of the food, cake, and the room decorated in mostly pink. J brought home some left over cake from Hennings and it was yummy! It was fun opening the gifts that J didn't get to open at the shower and seeing all the cute little outfits, blankets, bibs, books, and items off the registry.
On J's way to work this morning, he got into a car accident. Thankfully, he's okay! The car is fixable and glad we don't need to get a new one with the baby on the way. Despite the hassle, it was nice spending the day together and were able to clean out the baby's closet and make room for her things.
Fertility conversations are few and far between, but I understand why it doesn't happen. We met a lovely couple on Sunday and are meeting up with another couple tomorrow night for dinner. A previous co-worker friend messaged me tonight and asked if I could speak with her friend who had 3 miscarriages and wants to talk to someone who understands loss and fertility struggles. There was a time when I didn't want to deal with the things that were hard in life and preferred to hide from everyone and everything. The quote below sums up what God's in the business of doing and I found a really good hiding place...take a listen to the song.
Hiding Place by Jars of Clay
Sleep: Getting up a couple times a night and sleeping on my left side. We moved the glider into our bedroom a while ago and I'll sleep there for a few hours some nights. Movement: Lots of it! :) As I'm blogging, I feel her hiccup for the first time...small, rhythmic movements! http://www.livestrong.com/article/501651-im-nine-months-pregnant-and-the-baby-is-having-lots-of-hiccups/Cravings/Aversions: Still craving chocolate, esp. dark chocolate peanut m&m's...yum! Enjoying crunchy peanut butter and grape jelly sandwiches with a cup of milk. What I miss: Nothing at all. Feeling really content. Symptoms: Bloated hands and feet mostly. Experiencing round ligament pain when I wake up from sleep and naps. Feeling numbness on my right fingertips...pointer, middle, and fourth fingers. Not feeling much low back pain. :) What I look forward to: I'm looking forward to my baby shower on Saturday! Milestones: Our baby weighs a little over 4 pounds (heft a pineapple) and has passed the 17-inch mark. She's rapidly losing that wrinkled, alien look and his skeleton is hardening. The bones in her skull aren't fused together, which allows them to move and slightly overlap, thus making it easier for her to fit through the birth canal. (The pressure on the head during birth is so intense that many babies are born with a conehead-like appearance.) These bones don't entirely fuse until early adulthood, so they can grow as her brain and other tissue expands during infancy and childhood.